YMonday, September 05, 2005
woke up wit a bad flu, sore throat and migrane at 7am today..met shi to study at airport..
managed to cover FFB..and econs..
irfan came to teach me econs (sory kak nana..but i noe i wun fall 4 him..)
and py joint us later at t1 to eat at subway..
i had the cookiez..(finally)..YUMz!
i felt too sick so i decided to hop on the cab that irfan took cuz he wanted to reach home asap to chat wit helen..
along the way..we spoke..and somehow...
he made me realise that nothing's gona happen between us.
that the past will remain as the past and that the repeat of the relationship is just impossible and that perhaps he is talkin to me cuz he wants the comfort..not coz he wans me back.
i noe that its true..and somehow it made me want to just give up on him.
i had doubts..
i made up my mind tho..right after seeing her blog again..heh.
she miss him.
their MADE for each other..so..it shows how stupid i am to even hold on..any longer.
so..im not gona initiate anything anymore..concentrate on werk and school..
not sending him off..and just lookin forward and never turning back again.
i noe it can happen..as long as i keep myself bz and force myself to let him go..
yepz shi..perhaps the chinese saying is right..haha.
just let go k..we can do this together..no matter how complicated men can be..
their dumb cuz they duno how to read between the lines.
or perhapz...they just cant be bothered to.haha.
fretting over this is just a waste of time.
im sick and tired of all this already.
being lost in the fairytale and the jealousy of ur nemesis.
being hurt and overshadowed by the past.
being dissapointed by everything that u encounter.
and having hope for something that is so damn obvious.
i'm sick.tmr's the paper and here i am..letting him affect me.
that's it..im gona sleep through today..and wake up to a new beginning.
i'm gona make the effort to move on..
at least try to..why do i need to hold onto some1 whose not interested..
it'll just cause me hurt..more hurt.
credits to shi and irfan..
thanks guyz..for listening to all my nonsense.
we are gona have sooo much FUN come next week!!!!!
whee! =D
anyway..beautiful-james blunt is so damn touching..
_callous_ was here with you at
